I'm not sure whether crestfallen is the right word to describe how i feel right now.
I'm not angry or something.
I am just upset.
I don't know how am i going to put it but i just don't feel good.
Sometimes there are things in life that no matter how much we want it,
we just have to let it go.
There are people that no matter how much they made us happy,
we need to avoid.
There are decisions we need to make even if we're forced to do so.
And there are times that even if we want to make things right,
we are the ones who will be in a difficult situations.
And because we're forced to do those things,
we are the one who gets hurt in the end.
Sometimes we just need to go with the flow with our lives.
So that we can continue living the life we have started.
Sometimes we need to fight back so that people will think we're not a push over.
Sometimes we need to anticipate and hope so that we will continue to believe even if it's just for nothing.
Sometimes we need to accept everything,
whatever it is that has happened in our lives.
To just go with the flow of life, to fight for what we think is right,
and just by anticipating even if it's just for nothing.
But sometimes what we just need to do is keep quiet and cry in one corner so that we can pour out what we really feel inside.
When i don't feel good or when i'm upset with someone or
when i am not happy with something,
I will just keep quiet and think...
Where did i go wrong?
Is it my fault that things have turned out this way?
Why i never think before i say something bad?
Why do i need to say all those nasty things when i can just keep quiet so that i won't hurt someone?
Regrets always comes in the end.
But does regretting of what you just did helps the person you hurt felt better?
Noooo!!!
But no matter how things go wrong,
I always come to a realization that mistakes helps us find the right reason to open our eyes to accept the reality of life.
For now i just want to listen, and watch everything that is happening
around me.
Keep quiet and observe.
It's better to keep my mouth shut.
I don't wanna try to understand everything.
Because sometimes it is not meant to be understood.
But rather to be accepted.
It happened to me that no matter how much i try to think and understand how did things turned out like that.
I just can't seem to find the answer. It's just there, and i can't let it go.
The only thing I can do is accept it.
